MKE #3 – Week 16 – Oxymorons
There is an interesting feeling I want to ponder.
The feelings of strong duality on upon a certain idea.
Knowing ‘the law of dual thought’ is being aware that
I am choosing whatever feeling I want to associate with this
experience, present moment, idea.
It’s all there.
Everyday is new.
What do i choose?
It seems so obvious its silly.
“Just always focuse on the positive 24/7”
Attach good feelings to everything!
Why do i feel so strange when everything is going too good.
Like it only lasts X amount of time before,
for no logical reason other than
peptides are hungry
the white snowy layer of swet goodness seems to
leaving a brown mud that i
wake up surrounded by one day.
It doesnt just happen.
It’s in my mind.
waiting for the guardsmen to drop off duty
so it can sneak in like
the seeds of weeds in a garden bed
I realley don’t notice them until they
are obviously not what i want,
though Ive been nurturing them all along
with the intention of a progress in
whatever area i am focused.
I have felt these surging desires to make alot of noise
Or be outrageously different in public.
Inside I feel it.
But I hold myself back.
Not knowing if this is okay.
Can I do what I want and
allow it to be okay?
I have observed a tiresome
Resistance to the idea that
other people are unaffected by
anything that has to do with me.
It is they who are also choosing what they want to experience
in association to themself.
I want to be okay with me and others.
I cannot make anyone do something
and no one can make me do anything.
As rebellious as that can sound.
Are we not the only choosers of our choices?
The Sovereign of our cimcumstances.
Maybe that thing I am hesitant to let go of is not
in alignment with what I want anyway.
Let it go!